when everything tastes like megaa

December Night Air

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Went out with them girlies yesterday, thank you so much for making my day from dull to bright and interesting SHEEeEeT. haha Sorry, i dont really use such harsh words like that. :) (LOLs) I just couldnt find the right word that can actually describe all the FUN we had yesterday. Haha Explored KK with Shadel, Farrah and Nataf and it was fuun. =) next time kita explore kampung air lagi ah! XD Tried shisha too, Farrah n nataf kesyokkan ; jgn kmu addicted sda la =p oh and Thal supposed to come but she couldnt make it. =(

Here's pictures ; We took nearly 150plus pics ysterday. Haha so much for a photo maniac XD Just visit my fb for more pichhaa' :D

FARAAAAAH NASSER PUNYA WAAAAAAAAAAASTEEEEEEEEEEEED LOOOOOOK! XD

And hating you is the most exhausting thing to do and I don't wanna do it anymore, megaa.

And their war is over, and its our turn next year. Im constructing my biiiig plan A for next year. Enough with the "too much fun" and its time to get serious now XD
Im doin it now, and hopefully i could struggle better and win the lion fight next year, insyaallah. =)

random

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Few days ago i ws woken up by someone who pressed the doorbell as early as 8.. im not completely awake and aware with that situation that time cos i kind off thought that it probably came from my dream or somethin.. so, i just leave it. But somehow it gets pretty irritating and annoying and so, with my semi open eyes and sleeping soul, i sleepwalked to the gate to "greet" the lucky person who ruined my beauty sleep. XD at first i thought it was my maid but it surprises me to see this one familiar face.. a small boy that i used to tutor for math earlier of the year.. i opened the gate for him and he came up to me
"Hi, i wonder if you eat chocolate or not but i would like to give this to you.. i just came back from kl and im back now, and my momy said hi. and Saiful's momy ask if we can still come here next year for math" *smiles*
i was like awwwww this kid is such a cutie. Haha i tutored him for like a few months for math subject and he got an A for it, second highest in the class for his final exam not too long ago. and i finally for the first time in my life, i jus feel appreciated and a kid makes me feel appreciated and not some dude or anythin, a boy. how cute is thaaaaaaaaaat? =)

oh and i got this stupid funny little sh*t, i signed up for myspace idk, few weeks ago cos i ws bored. I kinda abandoned it but i logged in there just now. weirdly, i think the myspacers prefer private message instead of comments which is so not my style. and i got one of this message that kind off makes me laugh.. XD

oh and that is khairi, he always has his way to irritates me even in the school. Haha nah ambil kau, aku promote ko sini. Haha when boredom strikes, print-screening is always the best thing to do XD

If i know that i only had a year to live, i would live my days doing things that i dont regularly do, Quit from doing the norm thing that i did everyday. il go for the food first. Eat everything i want, i just dont care about getting the perfect figure anymore. and i always wanted a short hair, and the last time i had short hair is when i was a baby. Get a superb short haircut and feel good about it. i dont do regret in life, so yeah whatever..i must feeeeel good.

and after that il run a complete marathon. Haha i know its stupid but running makes me happy sometimes, makes me feel ten times better when im down altho i never like the sweating part. il run like a fat kid who thinks she is faster than the wind and complete my run and feel good about that. at least im not running away from reality, i know im dying so il run and feel invincible by completing my run :)

To me it seems like the right thing to do to see everyone before you die so that there will be no regrets. Ask for apology from every person i know and be thankful for participating in my life.. Not to forget, fulfilling my soul's needs before i leave the earth. Haha :p

It is good to travel to places that you'd always wanted to see as well as places that you have enjoyed in the past to feel like you've experienced enough of this world. I would want to waste a few months of my life to go for a solitary roadtrip and vacations, goin to places that i never been before. I always wanted to visit those places that i used to read in my history book.. Athens, sparta, the Colesseum and all. from egypt to india.. I would want to see them with my own eye. Iv been reading those thick book and its the time for me to set my butt on those places, for real =)

And im goin to tell my loved ones how much they mean to me. I'll tell him how i really feel for him. If theres really someone.. Hahaha XD

Partying hard is just a waste of what little time you have left. Most people who are told that they have a year to live are experiencing rapidly decline health and heavy drug or alcohol use is likely to push up the date of demise. And after that, i'll spend as much time as possible with the people I have found who I actually enjoy being with.

i don't want to die with my dreams still inside me. Or maybe theres somethin more to do, its just my mind couldnt do the thinkin now XD

im not dying, im jus bored. megaa (HAHA)

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Im really bored, literally. I guess today is the day that i could rest my but permanently at home at these time since iv been out wit my mom and sister since few days back.
Weekends ; family time. Haha
Just reached home, Went out with my dad,mom and sis jus now and i had this tiny little headache. Planned to jog tomorrow, i kinda eat alot and i cant resist that since i can feel its coming. The period. Haha it makes me crave for food even more den usual and its bad bad bad T_T
So far, i only jogged for 5 to 7 rounds and never reach to 10, it makes me really sad like really sad these days (yep blame hormones cos i got really sad for stupid things) since i couldnt reach my goal for 10 rounds since day one i started to jog.

I am trying to improve my Bm writing cos i really really need to improve them since i really need to take all my tests and exams pretty seriously next year. If you think that Bm paper for stpm is easy cheesy like pmr and spm (You dont really hav to read much or do much revision, jus listen to the teacher and its enough for you to at least get B) I think u got it really wrong there dude o_O . I miss those times where you dont really hav to read much of those last year.. I never actually study for Bm this year and i can blame that for having low marks on that paper. well I did stdy for it, but not much since i always find excuses to do something else around the school rather den entering the class for bm1 (HEHE). If you guys notice the front seat yang depan tcher tu slalu empty when Bm period kan. Hehehe XD

Dang, time flies sooooo fast. Its already December and 2009 almost reach to an end. Im getting old every year, so does everyone else. since its almost New year, im goin to come up with new resolutions too. Haha zzz

New year, probably new hair? Hehe

Sister will always be there for you, even yr hormones rages like flamethrowers :p

And sometimes, even the best of us make rash decisions, bad decisions, decisions we pretty much know we're regret the moment, the minute.. espeically the morning after. I mean, maybe not regret.... regret, because at least we put ourselves out there. But still, something inside of us decides to do a crazy thing, a thing we know that will probably bite us in the ass, but we do it anyway. What I am saying is, we reap what we sew. What comes around goes around. Like I was saying... payback is a bitch >.< I always hate regret but its the only thing that could make me rising back wit my own feet after fallin down and beaten up terribly :')

The point here is we can't help ourselves on making the right decisions, theres always a risk for you to take, megaa.

ps : Cant wait for Wednesday! Hehe <3 :)

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

New moon was.. um dull at the beginning. And 'pale' is the right word and still it couldnt caught my atention till Jacob chop his hair off and i was like, this is hotstuff. Haha im gonna rate new moon 3/5 , Thanks to Jacob. Haha [Shadel. Lautner's MIIIIINE ] XD

Jacob Black: Tell me something... You like me, right?
Bella Swan: *nods*
Jacob Black: And you think I'm sorta beautiful?
Bella Swan: Jake, please don't do this.
Jacob Black: Why?
Bella Swan: Because you're about to ruin everything. And I need you.
Jacob Black: Well, I've got loads of time. I'm not going to give up.
Bella Swan: I don't want you to. But that's just because I don't want you to go anywhere. It's really selfish. You know, I'm not like a car that you can fix up. I'm never going to run right.
Jacob Black: It's because of him, isn't it? Look, I know what he did to you. But Bella, I would never, ever do that. I won't ever hurt you. I promise. I won't let you down. You can count on me.

Hanging out with Shadel and David is such a memorable time since we dont spend much time together, Haha Lepak2 skejap and we hit the Kbox, layan lagu jiwaang~ Ahaha
mcm heartbroken pny muka ja ni ba nyanyi, sumbang sana sini. Hehe XD Dont take much pictures but HELL, we had soooooooo much fun :) I know i ddnt write much on this post, my brain is pretty slow and tired. Jogging td >.<

haha ss pic for 1st of december ;)

momma said if you hurt someone ; you gotta say sorry and not asking them what you did that is wrong :)

I make no apologies for how I chose to repair what you broke, megaa.

take me back to the start

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Theres too much things that bugs me in mind, a personal ones and i just dont know how and where should i start on solving them. Haha Oh forget bout that, i jus feel like writing and yep by writing crap, it can actually calms my mind, unawarely XD And when there is too much things that bugs me, i will get myself easily get irritated and annoyed with the world and things moving around me. You know, the usual normal thing that doesnt actly hurt me even bits, thats the thing that really annoyed right at this very moment.

Currently i am really lazy to go online on my Facebook, Why? cos my "Home" had been deteriorated by immature kids posting craps on tumblr and notificate them on my home. Seriously, grow up kids. And their languages makes me even more like im having a total major pure headache dude, its like they gotten F grade for spelling. Why dont you guys jus write proper punya bah, if english, spell la bah bagus2. If bm, spell yang betul2 la ba. And they update their tumblr like 10 times in an hour. ZZZZ,

BurHh Yew kNoo kuRh i Had de mOzzZ GrReateZ dAee oF muH lifE.
KaWwWw mAwwW tAAww?

like i care.

Oh and im downgrading myself from the old rusty pink 3250 to idk whats the model of hp that im using. It's nokia, sooo yesterday punya lah katakan and still, its even more retarded compared to what im using before this. I know, i told you that im not interested in cool handphones and all, but still, i dont, wont and im not changing my mind on that. i am still goin to stick wit my pathetic handphones and seriously, you dont have to be sorry for if you see me with my handphones. yeep, DONT BE SORRY! :D

and when im trying to make myself occupied with things, i kinda clean my room (supprised? yep cos cleaning wasnt really my thing XD) and i accidentally TER go through my latest exam punya results, and yep i got really scared for next year. Haha i know it is still early to be scared for stpm but what the hell am i thinking, goin through stpm? It's only suitable for the Hardcores and i am not even close to hardcore. My sidekicks (the bff, you know who they are <3) they are all the hardcore ones, and who am i compared to them? i gotten number 6 for the latest exams and all of them are ahead infront of me. ekang, she got 1st, serra got third and i got 6. Their pointer are wayy higher than mine, well literally.. I am not hardcore enough, and i am not competitive enough since competing with myself is more to my style. I am not really interested in competing with others, competing with myself is like improving myself, competing with my previous results and not competing with my friends. Odd much? but competing with urself is hard, since i am the lazy type of person, yeeep. :/

And i just dont know where should i start with the assignments. Theres tons actually, from Tamadun Dunia, to Muet. ZzZz I better start now (i know iv been complaining about this but hvnt really start anythin wt this XD)
I complained much aite? So not me, i was surprised too, too much complaining. I dont usually complain. I can feel its coming, yeep. Hormones raging, thats the common sign. Haha. Mhmhmhm Toodles!

I am more sad after watching this :'( Georgie, dont die :(((((((((((((((

you dont know how much i miss school, the crazy atmosphere and people around makes me smile, megaa

Dont know why.

Friday, November 27, 2009

went out with them girlies. Didnt watch new moon, went to the saloon with nicole instead. Wander around and wait till Thal they all done with the movies. As you all know, i am never a fan of those overrated film like twilight, harry potter and all. Its just sooooo... urgh. Idk. Cant find the right word to say. Ahaha. I'll just watch em when the fever for this film decreases down in a bits of time. Planned to watch this with Shaadeeel, next week probably? haha =) The funny thing is whenver i asked those people this > "How was the movie?" and their answer would be this "Edward proposed me! Ahhh! He is shooooo HOOOOT"
Hahaha. Reeaally, Tidak menjawab soalan XD

p/s: I'm broke, like totally. I need to save some money. And i wnted to buy these two dresses that i tried in Cp ysterday. Haih teda stock lg tu. Its the last piece and i hope no one's goin to buy it tho XD ITS MINE~ haha

Oh here's pictures :)

im singing a love song for no one, megaa.

Kickass Lyrics

According to you
I'm stupid, I'm useless, I can't do anything right.
According to you
I'm difficult, hard to please, forever changing my mind.
I'm a mess in a dress, can't show up on time, even if it would save my life.
According to you.

But according to him
I'm beautiful, incredible, he can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny, irresistible, everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not, according to you.

According to you
I'm boring, I'm moody, you can't take me any place.
According to you
I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away.
I'm the girl with the worst attention span; you're the boy who puts up with it.
According to you. According to you.

like I'm not hated.
Why can't you see me through his eyes?
It's too bad you're making me dizz-ay.

According to me
you're stupid,
you're useless,
you can't do anything right.
But according to him
I'm beautiful, incredible, he can't get me out of his head.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
according to you.

but what am i according to you?, megaa.

i am no longer a mystery

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

I am a free spirit and random. I would probably just take part of something that you never actually think that i could probably dare on doing, i would actually kiss you if im really happy but Im trying keep myself as sane as i could tho you might just think im a little bit weird sometimes. I like time alone and tend to keep a good distance from most people.. and by most, I mean everyone. I know a lot of people, but I keep very few as good friends. Groups of people can be hard for me to handle. I am not a perfectionist but I like things to be on its very best state. I know nothing is meant to be perfect, a bit of flaws would be nice but not too much. Its because I tend to think in rigid patterns, making me stubborn sometimes. I cant help that.

I have never given up on love, I don't always look for it. Love begets love. If you don't think well of yourself, you can't be positively affected by the person who is celebrating you for the specialness that you don't believe you have. I am very particular about those I date. I love strange and weird. Hehe. The less my partner is like other people, the more I like it. Thats what makes him different apart from everybody, i see him as the perfect person while others dont. That what makes him special to me. I do believe there is someone for everyone.

There is an escapist side to me. On a more positive level, I am concerned with making the world a better place. I only appear to be an escapist to others. But nothing is wrong with that. People tend to look for me when they need someone to talk to, and yes I am a good listener =) i honestly prefer them talking about their problem instead of mine. Its simple cause I am secretive which everyone kept telling me that. But sometimes, I forget to save myself. I just don’t know how to save myself.

Each of us reacts to the world around us in different ways. Our reactions both attract and repel us from things, people, and situations. What we like, what we like to do, and who we really are.
One thing I find uncomfortable is competition. I will only compete when necessary, and can be very serious about such things, but usually I try to avoid it. Competition with myself is more my style. Being a team-player can be a real test for me.

Most people remark on their first impression of me as intense and loud, which I think you got it really wrong there. I am not someone that most people should fear, but a few should. And I am only loud if only I know you inside and out, when the awkward lines got erased by me, I am loud, but if only you’re a good conversationalist.

I kind off have a little bit sense of humor that I am aware of. At least that's what I tell people when they think im not funny. Haha I'm very silly and out of control when I'm happy. My laugh sure can be heard miles away, my laugh pretty contagious, I bet the world sure would go along with what im laughing at. hehe

I've spent most of my life trying to prove that life isn't absurd. Its hard because life is unpredictable. But I have something on the tip of my tongue. The "answer" perhaps. Though sometimes I don’t have it, Im goin to look for it because it is called growing up, figuring the missing piece in life on how to do things right. I know that I can change reality if only the effort is there right next to you. I'm less concerned about fitting into the world, than I am with understanding it. I know that I'm not here to change you. I'm here to change me :)

To treat others the way you wish to be treated is an understatement. It's not as simple as showing love when it's given. It's as complicated as giving love, trusting that it is returned. There is only one currency for my loyalty, which is yours. I'm not nice but I can be nice. I know the difference between how I am treated and how I should be. Life is beautiful, mistakes make you better, and experience grows your thinking. As for me, life is a priceless gift from god. Appreciate it or you might just waste it for nothing. We only live once, just once =)

and when the sky is falling, i want you but no one else to save me, megaa.

Well yup i was bored, =) this is what you got. Just dont waste yr time reading this. i just need something to do when im bored, Writing =)
well this is a piece of me that came across my mind, well i tried do it cause i never really think whats the right word that best describes me. this is a progress actually, ive actually wrote a few paragraphs and its written about myself. teehee =)

just a quick update here. oh this is my fav wall XD well its in my brother's room, and not mine :( haha well, here's pictures :D

dont wonder why people go crazy, just wonder why they dont, megaa.

would i fight with an angel?
would i leave here with you or would i take it all back if i find something new?

i know there's something out there, i know there's something i fear
run away from here
i know there's something more to this
in this dark room, nothing that shines
run away from here

im falling, i am down
i've fallen, are you around?
and i know it's you
i'm leaving, i'm with me
i'm leaving, tell me the truth..
and i know it's you

would i fly with an angel?
or fly with you...
would i leave here with you?
or fly with you...
would i take it all back if I find something new?

are you around?, megaa.