Its friday finally and what a week! Loads and loads of things goin on and its a very exhausting yet exiting week, time flies too fast I cant deny on that. So yeah I finally decided to retake my muet exam cause my result sucks that I only get band 3 higher. A few more marks to band 4 and its frustrating, dont you think so? They told us that the marking format has literally changed and we thought its goin to be less stricter than the year before. False alarm here that it is actually getting way and way more stricter and tougher that only one person get band 5 for this year :X I was like wth, only a person out of the people who took muet in the school? Well yeah its my fault that I didnt take all of these things seriously, decided to retake right after I had the result on my hand.. plus with all these bigger and wider imagination on mind of my dad keep on repeating these lines over and over again.. 'yr brother get band5 and you only get band3? What is so hard about muet? He can do it.. why cant you do better?'.
Fuck comparison.
I was being so emo for all the postponed works, assignments and presentations that I kinda-sorta left for forum practices and the days I have been missing on action for the competition. I was being over-negative that I couldn't do all of that since I am deadly sick yesterday, I mean like DEADLY SICK. So I decided to swallowed up some pills and rest my head and off to the lala land on the evening. I think way too much and its annoying.. Woke up around 7 and start constructing my presentation first and some other works, I even sort em all out according to its due date. I am almost done with most of the presentation around 11pm. I wanted to sleep but you know that I do really have some kind of sleeping problem right. I can hardly sleep at night if I took a quick nap on the evening. So I continued on with the rest till 3am somethin and went to sleep right away. Sometimes I wonder what makes you people sleep so long? I am in need of tips on that here.
I havent seen him in a week and I thought the idea of moving on is the best for the time being but I have to say here that I am goin to put all the blame on you that you make it harder for me to do so. It is sweet that you actually notice that I am hiding myself away and its cute to know that you actually miss me. A plain and odd move.. or a simple gesture from you made my day :)
Somehow, I guess I will get through the phrase of you eventually, I am not putting any hopes on you for now. I guess you should know that =)
Urg maybe goin to cp tomorrow, my sister constantly stressing me to watch a movie with her in the cinema. I am not one of those kaki-wayang people but since she agree with the idea of bribing me a karaoke room for an hour, why not? ;) But hopefully jadi la since my schedule is fully packed from morning to 1pm, school some other things.
My dear sidekicks, all the best with the upcoming exams! Sama2 we struggle,
I love you all very very much :') <3
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