I guess its just my wishful thinking.

Ive been trying to download the STPM time table on mpm website since few hours ago but i dont know what is wrong with this, i mean is theres somethin wrong with the website or something wrong with my broadband line cause it says here download complete but I couldnt even view the friggin document. I know so much for a Tech-Dummy (Well people did actually called me that =P) Moving on.. Dates? The 'massacre ceremony' is on the 23th Nov and it ends on 13th December. And after raya, we only have 6 weeks left to this doomsday.. How fast time flies ey? I should take this seriously like right now and I guess my resting season from exam should stop right at this moment, I will start revising later. I mean after this. I just want to declare the death of me from blogspot, I promise you this is probably the last entry.. or maybe 2nd or 3rd last entries before I am declaring my death =P

Talking about trials, I did okay-ly.. well literally, not the best juga lah.. And I am deadly worried about bm again cause I didnt actually really study on that. So yeah im goin to start revising on that subject, concentrate more on it specially on paper one. And about SS, I crap way too much on that paper since the paper requires us to write 8 essays for six hours straight, and it exhausts my brain and hand as well till at one point where I can hardly feel my wrist anymore.
IT SHUUCCKKZZ <='(

AHH This made my day. Olive you = I love you :)



Well I just hate it when I love you is labeled as an overrated phrase cause of some stupid humans giving away this 3 magical words randomly to people without really feeling it. Well its the hardest phrase for me to really say it even to girlfriends =P I mean I will only say it if only I mean it to them. No hard feelings, I take this matter seriously.
HAHA I am so out of the topic XD

Talking about weekends, its is called 'spending quality time with myself' and 2 days are way too much for me, im just glad that tomorrow is schooldays and I hope teachers would return our trial papers back asap so that I'll know which subject needs the final touch up before im set to sail for the biggest war in my life. My life is so dull that I live, eat, breath for books now.. but its not the right time to complain and brag. Cause I dont really mind since this is only temporary. I cant seem to remember when was the last time im out with friends and such, i am an anti-social chick right now.. But its okay, I just dont want to regret and all I want to do is to make mom and dad proud of me :')
Its either I give up, give in, or give it all I’ve got ; My call.

And I hav lost my mojo in everything.. for writing, for camwhoring, for socializing. and what else? I feel so much content being quiet, dull but happy me right now but when im trying to get my ass back being the old loud bubbly and fun me, im kinda lost and i dont know how to begin, and where to start again...

And yeah I guess yr not interested, Although im feeling all those signs but when it comes to one point where my mind is to rest from running circles around my head about everything, I overthink and i made a simple conclusion here that maybe its just my wishful thinking.. and its maybe nothing. I try to not to think about you as it might bugs my mind and i think it sucks feeling distracted over things like that and such. But the thoughts of ‘nothing’ fades away when I see you again, w
hen you look at me
and the way you make me feel when I am with you..

Okay im crapping again!

Oh, You said im heartless macam kayu? Put this on yr mind, Sama ko syak tu. Jangan la ko macam2 mo ungkit2 ni benda lagi. Suda break, break la bah. Kalu ko panas ni, ketara la stalking org kan sampai blog pun mo kurik2? Bilang orang clubbing apa segala.. ko budu ka apa? Ko la ulung cakap aku gitu, nda pernah aku berminat smua tu benda which is obvious.. LMAO
Bkn ko ka tu actually? Bangga lagi tu, such a hypocrite.

Toodles, <3