Its always up to me.

I guess I shall write em all down here on things that I want to do after the huge aftermath of my life. Well I have those motivation and inspiration but it freaks me out so bad that I wont be able to actually do well on it. I need some more catalyst to bring this spirit up since the conversation that i had with my dad terrifies me, dad knows the perfect way to scares me.

Dad : Exam is in about a month time right?
Me : Err kinda, maybe it is less than a month thats for sure.
Dad : Make me proud okay?
Me : *looks down, i was actually grabbing a banana pretending that i never heard a thing like that from him*
Dad : I didnt mean to stress you all out but I just want the best from you. Cause I know you can do this, its your thing. I just want all time that you have sacrificed on this is worth it. Look at the brightsight, what if it isnt worth it?
Me : *Nods* I'll try.. its hard. but i'll do whatever it takes.
Dad : Okay, make me proud k?

"MAKE ME PROUD MAKE ME PROUD MAKE ME PROUD MAKE ME PROUD MAKE ME PROUD"
Ahhhhhhhhhh cant seem to get the words out from my head!!

I'll just write the to do's list on my entry after this lah tak de mood I dah. Dad you count way too much on me and this is frustrating! Its my thing!? You gotta be kidding me!